by laci » Tue Sep 12, 2017 11:03 am
DESCENT - Part Three.
I can hear him. He’s fighting again. I’m sitting on the bed, knees pulled up to my chin and eyes closed. If he hears me, he might come in. Tears stream down my cheeks. I hear glass shatter and he roars in rage. I hug my knees closer to my chest and bury my face in them. He cannot hear me.
~~~
Saidin rages within me like a storm, thunder pounding in my ears. I never want to let it go. I want to live in it, breath it, soak it in with every fiber of my being. Everything outside of Saidin is a dream. I let it fill me until I feel I will explode. It is a battle for survival, one that I eagerly embrace. From a distance, I hear myself yell, hear glass shattering, hear her stifled sobs from the other room. Nothing matters. Only Saidin.
~~~
It's been quiet for a while now. Perhaps he has exhausted himself. Gingerly, ever so gently, I stand up and creep towards the door. My entire body is on edge, my nerves screaming, my heart pounding in terror. My beautiful life is gone and now there is only fear. I open the door a crack and peek through. A crazed eye stares back at me.
~~~
I am the hunter now. She wants to stop me. Her fear is palpable, like a disgusting stink emanating through the house. I cannot be free until she is gone. And so I hunt. I creep to the door. I cannot believe how quiet I am when Saidin boils within me so loudly. A hunter must be patient and so I stand at the door and wait silently. After a time, I hear her get off the bed. I can almost hear her heart pounding against her ribs. Abruptly I realize I am grinning. Her hand on the knob, now the door Is opening. She peeks out, I see her red-rimmed eyes widen, but I give her no chance to react.
~~~
The door explodes inwards, hurling me across the room. I slam into the wooden chest of drawers, back cracking painfully. The chest of drawers he so lovingly crafted as a wedding gift all those years ago. He is standing the doorway looking at me, laughing. There is a feverish gleam in his eyes. He is muttering to himself. I reach behind me, fumbling with the drawers. I know my belt knife is in one of the drawers. What good a knife will do, I have no idea, but the thought of dying unarmed is terrifying.
~~~
The room is dark. I can hear her but I can’t see her. Who? What am I doing? Right, she’s trying to stop me. From what? What am I doing? Saidin ebbs and flows within me. I hesitate in the doorway. Where am I? Was I supposed to go into town today? I begin to laugh. I was supposed to meet Laci today. A thrill of excitement runs through my body. Laci. My love. I’m going to marry her one day. Saidin fades. Where is Laci? What am I doing?
~~~
He’s just standing there, giggling. I found my knife. I clench it tightly in my hand and begin to get to my feet.
~~~
“Lace?”
I see her now. She’s standing by the dresser. She loves that dresser. What is she doing? Why does she have a knife? She looks at me warily, knife held out in front of her. Why is she afraid? Maybe a walk by the lake will calm her. Who? What lake? I reach out for her and gently stroke her cheek.
~~~
A breeze brushes my cheek. I know it’s him. He’s looking at me, smiling. I hesitate, watching him. Maybe it’s over. Maybe he will go back to the man I married, the man I love. Suddenly, pain sears through my body. My skin being torn from my belly. I’m screaming, bleeding. The knife falls from my fingers as I drop to my knees, clutching my stomach.
~~~
My fingertips caress her skin. It is so soft and beautiful. She is beautiful. I press my hand against her belly. She was so sad that we never had children, but it didn’t matter to me. She was all I needed. I can hear her singing, her sweet voice. Her love burns within me, filling my body with its sweetness. I drink it in deeply, pulling as much as I can into me. I can’t get enough of her body, the feel of her skin, the sound of her sweet song. This is life. This is love. I love you, Lace. We are forever one.
~~~
I am screaming, shrieking, bleeding, dying. Through a red haze I see him. His eyes are closed and a smile is on his face. My skin is being torn off all over my body in little strips. I can hear him moaning. I fumble for my knife. I know it is here, I remember dropping it. My body is agony, blood roars in my ears. There. The knife is in my hands. I force myself to stand, to fight the onslaught. He doesn’t see me. His eyes are closed. I stumble towards him.
~~~
Her sweet singing fills me like an overflowing vessel. I’ve never felt such ecstasy, such joy. Does she feel it too? She’s here, coming to me. Opening my arms, I embrace her, pulling her closely to me, pressing her against my chest. She always liked my chest. I stroke her hair and whisper her name.
~~~
He is crushing me. I can hear what he is saying now.
“Lace, Lace, Laci, my wife,” over and over again. Tears stream down my face and screaming sobs rack my body. I cannot get the knife close enough. I cannot maneuver. He is ripping my hair out, his breath is hot on my face. My body is on fire, my blood is draining, I am dying. I stand at the edge of an abyss. Darkness is closing in. Desperately I fight, desperately I grapple with him. One last push and then darkness. We slip over the edge and plummet into the abyss.
DESCENT - Part Three.
I can hear him. He’s fighting again. I’m sitting on the bed, knees pulled up to my chin and eyes closed. If he hears me, he might come in. Tears stream down my cheeks. I hear glass shatter and he roars in rage. I hug my knees closer to my chest and bury my face in them. He cannot hear me.
~~~
Saidin rages within me like a storm, thunder pounding in my ears. I never want to let it go. I want to live in it, breath it, soak it in with every fiber of my being. Everything outside of Saidin is a dream. I let it fill me until I feel I will explode. It is a battle for survival, one that I eagerly embrace. From a distance, I hear myself yell, hear glass shattering, hear her stifled sobs from the other room. Nothing matters. Only Saidin.
~~~
It's been quiet for a while now. Perhaps he has exhausted himself. Gingerly, ever so gently, I stand up and creep towards the door. My entire body is on edge, my nerves screaming, my heart pounding in terror. My beautiful life is gone and now there is only fear. I open the door a crack and peek through. A crazed eye stares back at me.
~~~
I am the hunter now. She wants to stop me. Her fear is palpable, like a disgusting stink emanating through the house. I cannot be free until she is gone. And so I hunt. I creep to the door. I cannot believe how quiet I am when Saidin boils within me so loudly. A hunter must be patient and so I stand at the door and wait silently. After a time, I hear her get off the bed. I can almost hear her heart pounding against her ribs. Abruptly I realize I am grinning. Her hand on the knob, now the door Is opening. She peeks out, I see her red-rimmed eyes widen, but I give her no chance to react.
~~~
The door explodes inwards, hurling me across the room. I slam into the wooden chest of drawers, back cracking painfully. The chest of drawers he so lovingly crafted as a wedding gift all those years ago. He is standing the doorway looking at me, laughing. There is a feverish gleam in his eyes. He is muttering to himself. I reach behind me, fumbling with the drawers. I know my belt knife is in one of the drawers. What good a knife will do, I have no idea, but the thought of dying unarmed is terrifying.
~~~
The room is dark. I can hear her but I can’t see her. Who? What am I doing? Right, she’s trying to stop me. From what? What am I doing? Saidin ebbs and flows within me. I hesitate in the doorway. Where am I? Was I supposed to go into town today? I begin to laugh. I was supposed to meet Laci today. A thrill of excitement runs through my body. Laci. My love. I’m going to marry her one day. Saidin fades. Where is Laci? What am I doing?
~~~
He’s just standing there, giggling. I found my knife. I clench it tightly in my hand and begin to get to my feet.
~~~
“Lace?”
I see her now. She’s standing by the dresser. She loves that dresser. What is she doing? Why does she have a knife? She looks at me warily, knife held out in front of her. Why is she afraid? Maybe a walk by the lake will calm her. Who? What lake? I reach out for her and gently stroke her cheek.
~~~
A breeze brushes my cheek. I know it’s him. He’s looking at me, smiling. I hesitate, watching him. Maybe it’s over. Maybe he will go back to the man I married, the man I love. Suddenly, pain sears through my body. My skin being torn from my belly. I’m screaming, bleeding. The knife falls from my fingers as I drop to my knees, clutching my stomach.
~~~
My fingertips caress her skin. It is so soft and beautiful. She is beautiful. I press my hand against her belly. She was so sad that we never had children, but it didn’t matter to me. She was all I needed. I can hear her singing, her sweet voice. Her love burns within me, filling my body with its sweetness. I drink it in deeply, pulling as much as I can into me. I can’t get enough of her body, the feel of her skin, the sound of her sweet song. This is life. This is love. I love you, Lace. We are forever one.
~~~
I am screaming, shrieking, bleeding, dying. Through a red haze I see him. His eyes are closed and a smile is on his face. My skin is being torn off all over my body in little strips. I can hear him moaning. I fumble for my knife. I know it is here, I remember dropping it. My body is agony, blood roars in my ears. There. The knife is in my hands. I force myself to stand, to fight the onslaught. He doesn’t see me. His eyes are closed. I stumble towards him.
~~~
Her sweet singing fills me like an overflowing vessel. I’ve never felt such ecstasy, such joy. Does she feel it too? She’s here, coming to me. Opening my arms, I embrace her, pulling her closely to me, pressing her against my chest. She always liked my chest. I stroke her hair and whisper her name.
~~~
He is crushing me. I can hear what he is saying now.
“Lace, Lace, Laci, my wife,” over and over again. Tears stream down my face and screaming sobs rack my body. I cannot get the knife close enough. I cannot maneuver. He is ripping my hair out, his breath is hot on my face. My body is on fire, my blood is draining, I am dying. I stand at the edge of an abyss. Darkness is closing in. Desperately I fight, desperately I grapple with him. One last push and then darkness. We slip over the edge and plummet into the abyss.