by halfhand » Sun Nov 16, 2025 11:25 am
Chapter Sixteen
“Power is not ownership; it is stewardship. To wield it without responsibility is not freedom, but slavery to one’s own appetite.” Excerpt, Chapter 2, Philosophy of Natures and Power. Scholar Elan Morin Tedronai. Year unknown.
The next week on the road passed in uneasy quiet. Each of them carried their own ghosts from the Sleepless House, and every mile seemed to stretch the silence thinner. For Jena, her body slowly mended, but her mind still struggled to adapt to the events of the Sleepless House.
Each night, when they made camp, Lord Inquisitor summoned her for what he called a debrief. But for Jena it felt like a cross between a trial and an inquisition.
Lord Inquisitor questioned Jena carefully, making her repeat her tale in the Sleepless Mansion. His gaze was unreadable. His usual lazy amusement was gone, replaced by the cold gleam of a dissecting blade. This was her first experience with a true Questioning.
He did not move, except the constant clicking of his finger-armor, the noise hanging over Jena’s neck like a swinging guillotine.
“How can you not remember more?” Lord Inquisitor’s eyes were unblinking.
“It do be hard to put memories into words. They do blur together ” Yet he did not pause his impossible demand, and he continued to force her to recite over and over, drawing out the finest details that she did not even realize she remembered, peeling the memories back like old bandages.
While Lord Inquisitor crawled over her memory with a fine-tooth comb, it was regarding the end of the battle that he took the most interest.
“What happened after you stabbed the witch?” Lord Inquisitor asked again.
Jena swallowed. “All my strength do left me. I blacked out until I woke up here.”
His eyes didn’t leave her face. “No. Again. No summaries. Every detail. Don’t leave out the small things. Walk me through it.”
“I was on the table—it was knocked over, and the jolt… stirred me. Shrike do be in my hand, as if it wanted to be there. I could barely move, steering my arms like they were dangling on strings. The room was in flames. I couldn’t see you. But I saw the Lord Knight in the air—dying, crushed, bleeding. And… and she was there. Right in front of me. Her back to me. Vulnerable.”
“You were near death.” he asked, his voice quieter now. “What pulled you up when your body was finished?”
“I don’t know. Instinct. Shrike found my hand somehow. I stabbed her. I hoped but knew it wasn’t a killing blow. But it was all I had. And then I couldn’t see or move. But, I felt… peace.”
His eyes narrowed. “Peace. In that place?”
She faltered. “…Yes.”
“And then?”
There was a weight in the question, as though he was asking about more than just a sequence of events.
“I—” She frowned, pressing at the fog in her mind. “There do be … a feeling. Urgency. Heat. Light, maybe. Then nothing. I woke up outside.”
Lord Inquisitor leaned forward slightly. “Describe the light.”
She blinked. “I’m not sure it was light. Not the kind you see. There do be an almost painful heat. It was more like—” she broke off, unsettled. “It doesn’t matter.”
“It matters,” he said. “Again.”
And she did. Again and again, a dozen times over the next hour, he pulled the memory apart, made her circle back, made her scrape at the edges for anything she’d missed. His questions needled at her brain, making her itch to remember, to give him something. She didn’t know what he was looking for—only that he would not stop until he found it.
Eventually he leaned back, apparently satisfied. It felt like an eternity to Jena, she could feel her back soaked in cold sweat. But it seemed to be over. Lord Inquisitor had shifted again, returning to his mask of careless detachment. The transition itself was terrifying—how easily the predator became a jester again.
After the first interview, Jena thought that Lord Inquisitor was done but he made her sit again the next night. And the third night. And the questions seemed to be always the same. It almost seemed to become a routine to a point where Jena rattled off her answer as if memorized. She had gotten comfortable in the Lord Inquisitor's gaze. That is until the fourth night.
“And did you notice anything about Meria’s face before you struck her?” He asked, the first time diverting from his script.
Jena went to answer automatically, when something inside her seized her jaw and froze it for just a second. She had gotten too comfortable. A bead of cold sweat formed on her neck. She had never mentioned Meria’s name to him before– had she? It was possible Lord Inquisitor had learned it while Jena was unconscious, but in that case, wouldn’t Lord Knight know the name as well? Lord Knight had warned her to not let Lord Inquisitor know about the Lady’s memories, and his word held a dire truth. But then how would Lord Inquisitor know? Jena felt like she was caught in a badger trap.
Lord Inquisitor looked inscrutable, offering no clues about the nature of this deviation. But somehow Jena’s lips moved, hiding the rattling of her heart. “Meria do be the Lady’s name?”
The questioner simply nodded without a blink or a gesture. Jena felt an ominous aura settle around Lord Inquisitor, and yet the interview flowed forward again as if practiced. And that seemed to be the last night of questioning. She felt as if a balance had slipped. Either she had passed an unknown test, or she had fully stepped in the snare.
But such was the relationship that Jena had developed with the Lords. Though she had some experience with their presence, it was still like living on a dangerous edge. She could sense the darkness of their presence, and had seen personally the violence they were capable of. She had no doubt that to them, she was still ultimately a disposable tool. To be used and to be cast away at the earliest inconvenience.
After the darkhounds and the Sleepless House and her near death experience, she could feel the rational part of her telling her to just abandon this clearly suicidal quest. And yet she knew that her personal fate was tied up to this pair of men fundamentally as broken as her. There was never going to be a return to Troias. She was too changed.
Yet Jena could sense a shift in her relationship with the Lords since Sleepless. She could sense a tenseness with Lord Inquisitor despite the completion of the interviews and the keeping of her secret.
She wanted a return to before. She had considered giving her precious knife Shrike to Lord Inquisitor. His armament was depleted, and it would without a doubt be more useful in his hands, no matter her attachment to it. She did not want to give up Shrike dearly, but she felt perhaps the offering would serve her purpose. But to her relief, he gave her explicit permission to keep it.
“I cannot take your knife now, hound slayer.” He said. “It belongs to you and you to it. You are bound in promises of blood that I shall not break. In fact, it may even be considered a relic now by Children of Light tradition, almost a trifold blooded blade, blessed in the field and not the forge. First drink of three, blood of shadow. Second drink, blood of witch. Shrike is now twice blooded, something only a dozen Children of Light can claim and two of them are here. You should be proud, houndslayer, for one to have claimed to drink twice, that is a mark of a generational talent.” Though his voice was emotionless, the rare words of encouragement stirred a sense of pride in Jena.
“What is the third blood?” Jena asked. The Lords had dropped her daily questions limit.
“Perhaps one day you may find out.” Lord Inquisitor says, his voice seemed oddly sad. Jena did not push this further, but there was a pride now in holding her knife.
Her relationship with the Lord Knight was also different. One of Jena’s jobs was to help Lord Knight’s dressing, especially with his arms. As she unwrapped his dressing, she saw the lacerations covered with black scabs, but the wounds were starting to get weepy and angry with red streaks crawling up his skin.
“Does it hurt?” She asked, concerned.
“They don’t bother me, Jena.” He grunted, staring into the distance. She applied the dwindling poultice on the festering wounds. He didn’t flinch, didn’t even breathe differently when she touched him. The calm frightened her more than the blood ever could. She tried to avoid touching the wounds directly, because they made her skin crawl. But she continued on with her duties quietly, wrapping them carefully like she had been taught by the goodwife loris and praying to the Light they would heal and whispering the Litany of healing.
She paid more attention to Lord Knight’s tomes now. Once, she found them tedious and dense. She would read the same paragraph multiple times and still not make sense. But now she felt drawn towards them, especially the black bound book of Philosophy of Natures and Power.
When she read it now, it felt like a book was finally revealing its core secrets. Initially, it seemed to be a wandering diatribe about the abstract understanding of Power. But now, its words resonated with the new, burning hunger she felt since her near death. It spoke of strength as burden, of the world as something shaped by will alone.
And there was something more that she had held back from the interrogation besides Meria’s memories. She had resisted revealing it to anyone simply because it felt so personal. That when she had her near death experience in the Sleepless House, she had experienced something transcendental and indescribable. She had felt something vast and infinite. She knew in her heart it must be the Creator, a red light of almost painful heat and blistering intensity. And when she woke up, she knew she had changed. There was a purpose of spirit and hunger for life. Without it, she would have been a catatonic mess.
When the Knight noticed her reading, he only nodded. “I was hopeful you could make it further than me,” he said. “The one who taught me claimed that book would change the world.” And with her heart, she knew that to be the truth.
The mountains of the peninsula to the capital rose over the marshes, and they picked their way carefully through the rocky mountain passes. The ground here was more travelled. The mountain passes and the fort chain here would be the last barrier to Illian downcountry, where lies the capital city of canals.
Jena has never been this far. She made small trips with her family or with the Goodwife Lordis, but the shield wall was far from her experience. However, she picked the right paths, driven by memories of Lady Meria. It was unnatural, yes, and unsettling, but it allowed her to lead around most of the common patrol paths of the Illian army. It was hard for her sometimes to sort out what was her own memories. It would be ironic if the Lords of Light knew how much they were guided by the psychic ghost of a witch.
They made good time here, even with their meager supplies that they supplemented with foraging. Jena’s abilities to hunt served them well, but as they got up in the mountains, the game became scarce and their stomachs lean.
To get past the mountain passes, one would have to navigate through the network of Illian forts. One of them rose in the distance too, perched in the crevice of the past, chiseled into the mountain with battlements reigning over, ready to shower any invading army with oils and boulders.
Jena gazed at the fort as she felt the pit in her stomach drop. Even though she was guided here by instinct, she could feel a deep engrained terror yanking at her. Her memories from Meria were incomplete. There were no discrete details, but raw emotions and fear that her subconscious associated with that mountain fort. She knew what waited there was beyond death.
“This is the one. The home of the Winnika.” She said more to herself.
Jena could see Him in her mind’s eyes through the ghost. It was like the eyes of a predator. It was the same eyes of the creature wearing her father’s face on that winter cold. She had locked those memories behind a cage, but whatever the Sleepless Lady –- Meria had done to her had left her old memories drifting and mixing with a life she had never lived.
They were halfway up the mountain pass when a lone figure stepped into the trail. Jena had begun to notice the silence of the forest, the way the wind seemed to avoid the place. Then a figure stepped onto the trail ahead.
He wore armor that had once gleamed, now dulled and flaking like old lacquer. Six more men rose from the brush with crossbows raised, cutting off any escape path. The motion was too smooth, too practiced, even in their ragged state.
“Lovely,” Lord Inquisitor muttered, raising his hands with exaggerated slowness. “If you’re selling souvenirs, I fear we left our coin in a fire. Large fire. Very tragic.” His voice was light, but Jena saw how his eyes never left their weapons. Lord Knight’s hand had drifted to his sword hilt.
“If you’ve got no silver,” the leader drawled, there was a hint of a strange accent. “then leave your horses and your packs, and maybe we’ll spare your lives.”
Up close, they looked half-starved—beards grown wild, eyes too bright with hunger. Yet even broken, there was discipline in them, the sort that came from years under command.
“You’re Seanchan,” Lord Knight said, hand casually resting on his sword hilt. “What are you doing waylaying travelers on Illian soil?”
That got a reaction—muttering among the men, one of them spitting in the dirt.
Seanchan. Jena had heard of that term before. Tales of a savage army from across the sea, murdering and enslaving women. Jena had only heard of them in stories. But what she heard was that they were monsters, and rode beasts of nightmare. This ragged bunch of bandits did not look very legendary to Jena.
“Don’t draw, soldier,” the Seanchan leader warned. “You try anything and we’ll bury you here. You may look like beggars, but you ride those warhorses like you know them. You’re not fools. Don’t act like them.”
Before Lord Knight could reply, a distant sound rose from the valley. Heavy hoofbeats. A plume of dust crested the far hill.
“Illian patrol,” one of the Seanchan scouts hissed. “Big one.”
The leader clicked his tongue and gestured sharply. The crossbows vanished into the brush as quickly as they’d appeared, likely down a hidden path. Moments later, the trail was clear—save for faint footprints and broken branches.
The Inquisitor tilted his head, smirking. “So. Shall we vanish too?”
“Wait,” the Knight said. “We follow.”
Jena blinked. Follow them? The Seanchan?
Lord Knight turned his horse off the trail, into the undergrowth. The Inquisitor gave a long-suffering sigh but went after him.
“What are you doing?” Lord Inquisitor hissed. Jena echoed the same question in her own head.
“We need allies,” the Knight replied, his voice low and certain. “Weapons. And answers. Desperate times call for desperate allies.”
They found the deserters again in a hollow below the ridge. The Seanchan rose from their crouch, crossbows trained, expressions hard.
“Mad dogs,” the Seanchan captain spat. “You had your chance to walk away. Now you follow us? Why?”
“I wonder the same thing,” Lord Inquisitor murmured. Jena agreed as well silently, eying the sharp arrows aimed at them.
Lord Knight stepped forward slowly, hands open. “Because we have a common enemy. And perhaps a common past. Judging from your armor, you were stationed at the coastal outpost.”
That gave the deserters pause. One or two lowered their bows slightly. The captain hesitated, then nodded grimly.
“You’re not wrong,” he said. “What’s left of it.”
“Tell me what happened.”
A moment passed. Then the captain spoke.
“They came in the night. Armor like the Illian Companions—but wrong. Silver, but traced with red sigils that glowed like molten iron in the dark. They broke over the walls and tore through plate armor like parchment. Our damane lit the field with fire—but it didn’t stop them. Whatever they were, they were not humans.”
His voice turned hoarse.
“Nothing could stop them. I saw them tear the heads from sul’dam and deathwatch with their bare hands. No mercy. No quarter. Our supply ship tried to flee with the camp supporters. I couldn’t see what, but something formless rose up from the black sea, writhing and seething. Dragged the ship down below the waves. Screams carried all the way to the cliffs.”
Lord Inquisitor gave a slow whistle. “And you? You ran.”
The Seanchan’s eyes narrowed. Arrows rose again.
“Just saying, it’s a bold look for the Ever Victorious Army.”
Lord Knight raised a hand. “You lived. That matters now. The Light has given you a second chance. Your enemies are our enemies. Fight with us. It’s not too late to reclaim your honor.”
“Children of the Light.” The Seanchan Captain shook his head. “No. You don’t understand. Did you not hear what I just told you and saw with my own eyes? They weren’t men. They weren’t right. We live on their scraps here, but we still live. To fight them is walking to sure death.”
He pointed in the distance towards the mountain fort. He leaned forward slightly, eyes haunted.
“Don’t think we didn’t try. We did retreat to survive their initial attack.” His voice was harsh. “But I gathered what was left, and we followed them and their captives. We had no choice. That bloody fort is where we tracked them to.
“We prepared an infiltration. We thought just like you. But when he got close, what we saw.” There was a murmur in the ranks of the Seanchan. “They knew we were coming, because all the captives were lined up on the lowest parapet, nooses around their neck. And they were screaming, crying for help, obviously trying to bait us close.
“But as we drew close, hesitant, they were tossed over the parapet, to hang. But that was not the worst part. Even with their necks obviously broken, their screams never stopped, and their body jerked in an impossible way. One of my sharpshooters got close enough to fire an arrow to put a mercy arrow through the skull of a screamer. It did nothing. The screams continued through the night. Whatever was done to them kept them moving and screaming for a week. When the screams finally silenced a week ago, even the vultures left their bodies alone. Each of us can still hear those screams now. I lost two good men who tried to go in to silence them. Never again.”
“That place is a pit of pure evil. They bring prisoners. Mostly Illianers. Some even willingly. Once a week. Taken to that Fortress and beyond. But no one ever returns. The locals won’t go near it. The few that remain.”
“We’ve seen worse,” Lord Knight said quietly. “ You faced something you couldn’t understand—couldn’t defeat. I don’t blame you for surviving. But you have seen the evils of that tower.”
The Seanchan captain’s jaw tightened. He didn’t speak.
Lord Knight pressed. “Your armor may be broken, your ranks scattered—but your name is not gone. We have fought the evils of this land, we have won. We have paid for it, but we have won still. There is a reason you have stayed around here. You know in your heart that you cannot leave without justice uncorrected. I think the land has cursed you to stay here. The Light has connected us for a reason. Help us. We need to know the truth of that fortress.”
Silence. The crossbows didn’t lower—but they didn’t fire, either.
One of the younger deserters shifted. “We could—”
“No,” the captain snapped, silencing him. His voice cracked like frost underfoot. “You don’t understand until you have stood at its threshold. You will see. We will not go anywhere next to it again.”
Lord Knight’s jaw clenched. “Then you’ve already surrendered.”
The captain looked away, as if ashamed. “I’d rather be ashamed and alive than be turned into those things. Leave us. You’re madmen. You’ll wish we had just cut your throat here..”
He turned. The others followed with hesitation—vanishing into the forest like ghosts.
Lord Inquisitor stood silent a long moment before he spoke. “You almost had them.”
Jena had felt it too. The Seanchan wanted to agree, but Lord Knight’s words tugged at something fundamental. But visceral fear had won in the end. And she understood it too well.
Lord Knight nodded. “Almost isn’t enough.”
“I’ve seen their look before. They’re broken. Might as well be ghosts.”
“Then let’s make sure we don’t break the same way,” Lord Knight said, looking toward the mountain. “Our plan doesn’t change. We will investigate the Fortress.”
Those words drew cold terror in Jena from memories that were not of hers. But, she had sworn to Lord Knight that she could keep up. Her stomach quashed at stepping into that realm, to face the terrifying visage of their nightmares. She opened her mouth, fighting with the two halves of self, “Lord Knight, i do not…. I do not…”
Lord Knight cut her off, as if knowing her mind. “Jena, we do not expect you to step in there. There is clear danger and you physically have not healed. You have been involved in the terrible fighting, but that was never your purpose. In your physical state, you will only slow us down.” He says, despite the edges of his exposed bandages fluttering in the wind. He softened his edge, “And you will need to be witness to our deeds. If we do not return.”
It was a solution to her decision paralysis, and yet it still left her uneasy to be left alone on the hillside. But what other choice did she have? She wanted to protest, but yet the clenching of her heart lightened.
By dusk, she watched them climb the path toward the mountain’s heart. The wind tugged at the Knight’s bandages and set the Inquisitor’s cloak snapping like a black flame as they faded into the shadows of the path.
Jena found a hollow where the grass was soft and the horses could graze. She built a small fire, not for warmth but for the illusion of safety, and waited in the shadows of the mountains. And she would wait a long time.
[b]Chapter Sixteen[/b]
[i]“Power is not ownership; it is stewardship. To wield it without responsibility is not freedom, but slavery to one’s own appetite.”[/i] Excerpt, Chapter 2, Philosophy of Natures and Power. Scholar Elan Morin Tedronai. Year unknown.
The next week on the road passed in uneasy quiet. Each of them carried their own ghosts from the Sleepless House, and every mile seemed to stretch the silence thinner. For Jena, her body slowly mended, but her mind still struggled to adapt to the events of the Sleepless House.
Each night, when they made camp, Lord Inquisitor summoned her for what he called a debrief. But for Jena it felt like a cross between a trial and an inquisition.
Lord Inquisitor questioned Jena carefully, making her repeat her tale in the Sleepless Mansion. His gaze was unreadable. His usual lazy amusement was gone, replaced by the cold gleam of a dissecting blade. This was her first experience with a true Questioning.
He did not move, except the constant clicking of his finger-armor, the noise hanging over Jena’s neck like a swinging guillotine.
“How can you not remember more?” Lord Inquisitor’s eyes were unblinking.
“It do be hard to put memories into words. They do blur together ” Yet he did not pause his impossible demand, and he continued to force her to recite over and over, drawing out the finest details that she did not even realize she remembered, peeling the memories back like old bandages.
While Lord Inquisitor crawled over her memory with a fine-tooth comb, it was regarding the end of the battle that he took the most interest.
“What happened after you stabbed the witch?” Lord Inquisitor asked again.
Jena swallowed. “All my strength do left me. I blacked out until I woke up here.”
His eyes didn’t leave her face. “No. Again. No summaries. Every detail. Don’t leave out the small things. Walk me through it.”
“I was on the table—it was knocked over, and the jolt… stirred me. Shrike do be in my hand, as if it wanted to be there. I could barely move, steering my arms like they were dangling on strings. The room was in flames. I couldn’t see you. But I saw the Lord Knight in the air—dying, crushed, bleeding. And… and she was there. Right in front of me. Her back to me. Vulnerable.”
“You were near death.” he asked, his voice quieter now. “What pulled you up when your body was finished?”
“I don’t know. Instinct. Shrike found my hand somehow. I stabbed her. I hoped but knew it wasn’t a killing blow. But it was all I had. And then I couldn’t see or move. But, I felt… peace.”
His eyes narrowed. “Peace. In that place?”
She faltered. “…Yes.”
“And then?”
There was a weight in the question, as though he was asking about more than just a sequence of events.
“I—” She frowned, pressing at the fog in her mind. “There do be … a feeling. Urgency. Heat. Light, maybe. Then nothing. I woke up outside.”
Lord Inquisitor leaned forward slightly. “Describe the light.”
She blinked. “I’m not sure it was light. Not the kind you see. There do be an almost painful heat. It was more like—” she broke off, unsettled. “It doesn’t matter.”
“It matters,” he said. “Again.”
And she did. Again and again, a dozen times over the next hour, he pulled the memory apart, made her circle back, made her scrape at the edges for anything she’d missed. His questions needled at her brain, making her itch to remember, to give him something. She didn’t know what he was looking for—only that he would not stop until he found it.
Eventually he leaned back, apparently satisfied. It felt like an eternity to Jena, she could feel her back soaked in cold sweat. But it seemed to be over. Lord Inquisitor had shifted again, returning to his mask of careless detachment. The transition itself was terrifying—how easily the predator became a jester again.
After the first interview, Jena thought that Lord Inquisitor was done but he made her sit again the next night. And the third night. And the questions seemed to be always the same. It almost seemed to become a routine to a point where Jena rattled off her answer as if memorized. She had gotten comfortable in the Lord Inquisitor's gaze. That is until the fourth night.
“And did you notice anything about Meria’s face before you struck her?” He asked, the first time diverting from his script.
Jena went to answer automatically, when something inside her seized her jaw and froze it for just a second. She had gotten too comfortable. A bead of cold sweat formed on her neck. She had never mentioned Meria’s name to him before– had she? It was possible Lord Inquisitor had learned it while Jena was unconscious, but in that case, wouldn’t Lord Knight know the name as well? Lord Knight had warned her to not let Lord Inquisitor know about the Lady’s memories, and his word held a dire truth. But then how would Lord Inquisitor know? Jena felt like she was caught in a badger trap.
Lord Inquisitor looked inscrutable, offering no clues about the nature of this deviation. But somehow Jena’s lips moved, hiding the rattling of her heart. “Meria do be the Lady’s name?”
The questioner simply nodded without a blink or a gesture. Jena felt an ominous aura settle around Lord Inquisitor, and yet the interview flowed forward again as if practiced. And that seemed to be the last night of questioning. She felt as if a balance had slipped. Either she had passed an unknown test, or she had fully stepped in the snare.
But such was the relationship that Jena had developed with the Lords. Though she had some experience with their presence, it was still like living on a dangerous edge. She could sense the darkness of their presence, and had seen personally the violence they were capable of. She had no doubt that to them, she was still ultimately a disposable tool. To be used and to be cast away at the earliest inconvenience.
After the darkhounds and the Sleepless House and her near death experience, she could feel the rational part of her telling her to just abandon this clearly suicidal quest. And yet she knew that her personal fate was tied up to this pair of men fundamentally as broken as her. There was never going to be a return to Troias. She was too changed.
Yet Jena could sense a shift in her relationship with the Lords since Sleepless. She could sense a tenseness with Lord Inquisitor despite the completion of the interviews and the keeping of her secret.
She wanted a return to before. She had considered giving her precious knife Shrike to Lord Inquisitor. His armament was depleted, and it would without a doubt be more useful in his hands, no matter her attachment to it. She did not want to give up Shrike dearly, but she felt perhaps the offering would serve her purpose. But to her relief, he gave her explicit permission to keep it.
“I cannot take your knife now, hound slayer.” He said. “It belongs to you and you to it. You are bound in promises of blood that I shall not break. In fact, it may even be considered a relic now by Children of Light tradition, almost a trifold blooded blade, blessed in the field and not the forge. First drink of three, blood of shadow. Second drink, blood of witch. Shrike is now twice blooded, something only a dozen Children of Light can claim and two of them are here. You should be proud, houndslayer, for one to have claimed to drink twice, that is a mark of a generational talent.” Though his voice was emotionless, the rare words of encouragement stirred a sense of pride in Jena.
“What is the third blood?” Jena asked. The Lords had dropped her daily questions limit.
“Perhaps one day you may find out.” Lord Inquisitor says, his voice seemed oddly sad. Jena did not push this further, but there was a pride now in holding her knife.
Her relationship with the Lord Knight was also different. One of Jena’s jobs was to help Lord Knight’s dressing, especially with his arms. As she unwrapped his dressing, she saw the lacerations covered with black scabs, but the wounds were starting to get weepy and angry with red streaks crawling up his skin.
“Does it hurt?” She asked, concerned.
“They don’t bother me, Jena.” He grunted, staring into the distance. She applied the dwindling poultice on the festering wounds. He didn’t flinch, didn’t even breathe differently when she touched him. The calm frightened her more than the blood ever could. She tried to avoid touching the wounds directly, because they made her skin crawl. But she continued on with her duties quietly, wrapping them carefully like she had been taught by the goodwife loris and praying to the Light they would heal and whispering the Litany of healing.
She paid more attention to Lord Knight’s tomes now. Once, she found them tedious and dense. She would read the same paragraph multiple times and still not make sense. But now she felt drawn towards them, especially the black bound book of Philosophy of Natures and Power.
When she read it now, it felt like a book was finally revealing its core secrets. Initially, it seemed to be a wandering diatribe about the abstract understanding of Power. But now, its words resonated with the new, burning hunger she felt since her near death. It spoke of strength as burden, of the world as something shaped by will alone.
And there was something more that she had held back from the interrogation besides Meria’s memories. She had resisted revealing it to anyone simply because it felt so personal. That when she had her near death experience in the Sleepless House, she had experienced something transcendental and indescribable. She had felt something vast and infinite. She knew in her heart it must be the Creator, a red light of almost painful heat and blistering intensity. And when she woke up, she knew she had changed. There was a purpose of spirit and hunger for life. Without it, she would have been a catatonic mess.
When the Knight noticed her reading, he only nodded. “I was hopeful you could make it further than me,” he said. “The one who taught me claimed that book would change the world.” And with her heart, she knew that to be the truth.
The mountains of the peninsula to the capital rose over the marshes, and they picked their way carefully through the rocky mountain passes. The ground here was more travelled. The mountain passes and the fort chain here would be the last barrier to Illian downcountry, where lies the capital city of canals.
Jena has never been this far. She made small trips with her family or with the Goodwife Lordis, but the shield wall was far from her experience. However, she picked the right paths, driven by memories of Lady Meria. It was unnatural, yes, and unsettling, but it allowed her to lead around most of the common patrol paths of the Illian army. It was hard for her sometimes to sort out what was her own memories. It would be ironic if the Lords of Light knew how much they were guided by the psychic ghost of a witch.
They made good time here, even with their meager supplies that they supplemented with foraging. Jena’s abilities to hunt served them well, but as they got up in the mountains, the game became scarce and their stomachs lean.
To get past the mountain passes, one would have to navigate through the network of Illian forts. One of them rose in the distance too, perched in the crevice of the past, chiseled into the mountain with battlements reigning over, ready to shower any invading army with oils and boulders.
Jena gazed at the fort as she felt the pit in her stomach drop. Even though she was guided here by instinct, she could feel a deep engrained terror yanking at her. Her memories from Meria were incomplete. There were no discrete details, but raw emotions and fear that her subconscious associated with that mountain fort. She knew what waited there was beyond death.
“This is the one. The home of the Winnika.” She said more to herself.
Jena could see Him in her mind’s eyes through the ghost. It was like the eyes of a predator. It was the same eyes of the creature wearing her father’s face on that winter cold. She had locked those memories behind a cage, but whatever the Sleepless Lady –- Meria had done to her had left her old memories drifting and mixing with a life she had never lived.
They were halfway up the mountain pass when a lone figure stepped into the trail. Jena had begun to notice the silence of the forest, the way the wind seemed to avoid the place. Then a figure stepped onto the trail ahead.
He wore armor that had once gleamed, now dulled and flaking like old lacquer. Six more men rose from the brush with crossbows raised, cutting off any escape path. The motion was too smooth, too practiced, even in their ragged state.
“Lovely,” Lord Inquisitor muttered, raising his hands with exaggerated slowness. “If you’re selling souvenirs, I fear we left our coin in a fire. Large fire. Very tragic.” His voice was light, but Jena saw how his eyes never left their weapons. Lord Knight’s hand had drifted to his sword hilt.
“If you’ve got no silver,” the leader drawled, there was a hint of a strange accent. “then leave your horses and your packs, and maybe we’ll spare your lives.”
Up close, they looked half-starved—beards grown wild, eyes too bright with hunger. Yet even broken, there was discipline in them, the sort that came from years under command.
“You’re Seanchan,” Lord Knight said, hand casually resting on his sword hilt. “What are you doing waylaying travelers on Illian soil?”
That got a reaction—muttering among the men, one of them spitting in the dirt.
[i]Seanchan. [/i]Jena had heard of that term before. Tales of a savage army from across the sea, murdering and enslaving women. Jena had only heard of them in stories. But what she heard was that they were monsters, and rode beasts of nightmare. This ragged bunch of bandits did not look very legendary to Jena.
“Don’t draw, soldier,” the Seanchan leader warned. “You try anything and we’ll bury you here. You may look like beggars, but you ride those warhorses like you know them. You’re not fools. Don’t act like them.”
Before Lord Knight could reply, a distant sound rose from the valley. Heavy hoofbeats. A plume of dust crested the far hill.
“Illian patrol,” one of the Seanchan scouts hissed. “Big one.”
The leader clicked his tongue and gestured sharply. The crossbows vanished into the brush as quickly as they’d appeared, likely down a hidden path. Moments later, the trail was clear—save for faint footprints and broken branches.
The Inquisitor tilted his head, smirking. “So. Shall we vanish too?”
“Wait,” the Knight said. “We follow.”
Jena blinked.[i] Follow them? The Seanchan?[/i]
Lord Knight turned his horse off the trail, into the undergrowth. The Inquisitor gave a long-suffering sigh but went after him.
“What are you doing?” Lord Inquisitor hissed. Jena echoed the same question in her own head.
“We need allies,” the Knight replied, his voice low and certain. “Weapons. And answers. Desperate times call for desperate allies.”
They found the deserters again in a hollow below the ridge. The Seanchan rose from their crouch, crossbows trained, expressions hard.
“Mad dogs,” the Seanchan captain spat. “You had your chance to walk away. Now you follow us? Why?”
“I wonder the same thing,” Lord Inquisitor murmured. Jena agreed as well silently, eying the sharp arrows aimed at them.
Lord Knight stepped forward slowly, hands open. “Because we have a common enemy. And perhaps a common past. Judging from your armor, you were stationed at the coastal outpost.”
That gave the deserters pause. One or two lowered their bows slightly. The captain hesitated, then nodded grimly.
“You’re not wrong,” he said. “What’s left of it.”
“Tell me what happened.”
A moment passed. Then the captain spoke.
“They came in the night. Armor like the Illian Companions—but wrong. Silver, but traced with red sigils that glowed like molten iron in the dark. They broke over the walls and tore through plate armor like parchment. Our damane lit the field with fire—but it didn’t stop them. Whatever they were, they were not humans.”
His voice turned hoarse.
“Nothing could stop them. I saw them tear the heads from sul’dam and deathwatch with their bare hands. No mercy. No quarter. Our supply ship tried to flee with the camp supporters. I couldn’t see what, but something formless rose up from the black sea, writhing and seething. Dragged the ship down below the waves. Screams carried all the way to the cliffs.”
Lord Inquisitor gave a slow whistle. “And you? You ran.”
The Seanchan’s eyes narrowed. Arrows rose again.
“Just saying, it’s a bold look for the Ever Victorious Army.”
Lord Knight raised a hand. “You lived. That matters now. The Light has given you a second chance. Your enemies are our enemies. Fight with us. It’s not too late to reclaim your honor.”
“Children of the Light.” The Seanchan Captain shook his head. “No. You don’t understand. Did you not hear what I just told you and saw with my own eyes? They weren’t men. They weren’t right. We live on their scraps here, but we still live. To fight them is walking to sure death.”
He pointed in the distance towards the mountain fort. He leaned forward slightly, eyes haunted.
“Don’t think we didn’t try. We did retreat to survive their initial attack.” His voice was harsh. “But I gathered what was left, and we followed them and their captives. We had no choice. That bloody fort is where we tracked them to.
“We prepared an infiltration. We thought just like you. But when he got close, what we saw.” There was a murmur in the ranks of the Seanchan. “They knew we were coming, because all the captives were lined up on the lowest parapet, nooses around their neck. And they were screaming, crying for help, obviously trying to bait us close.
“But as we drew close, hesitant, they were tossed over the parapet, to hang. But that was not the worst part. Even with their necks obviously broken, their screams never stopped, and their body jerked in an impossible way. One of my sharpshooters got close enough to fire an arrow to put a mercy arrow through the skull of a screamer. It did nothing. The screams continued through the night. Whatever was done to them kept them moving and screaming for a week. When the screams finally silenced a week ago, even the vultures left their bodies alone. Each of us can still hear those screams now. I lost two good men who tried to go in to silence them. Never again.”
“That place is a pit of pure evil. They bring prisoners. Mostly Illianers. Some even willingly. Once a week. Taken to that Fortress and beyond. But no one ever returns. The locals won’t go near it. The few that remain.”
“We’ve seen worse,” Lord Knight said quietly. “ You faced something you couldn’t understand—couldn’t defeat. I don’t blame you for surviving. But you have seen the evils of that tower.”
The Seanchan captain’s jaw tightened. He didn’t speak.
Lord Knight pressed. “Your armor may be broken, your ranks scattered—but your name is not gone. We have fought the evils of this land, we have won. We have paid for it, but we have won still. There is a reason you have stayed around here. You know in your heart that you cannot leave without justice uncorrected. I think the land has cursed you to stay here. The Light has connected us for a reason. Help us. We need to know the truth of that fortress.”
Silence. The crossbows didn’t lower—but they didn’t fire, either.
One of the younger deserters shifted. “We could—”
“No,” the captain snapped, silencing him. His voice cracked like frost underfoot. “You don’t understand until you have stood at its threshold. You will see. We will not go anywhere next to it again.”
Lord Knight’s jaw clenched. “Then you’ve already surrendered.”
The captain looked away, as if ashamed. “I’d rather be ashamed and alive than be turned into those things. Leave us. You’re madmen. You’ll wish we had just cut your throat here..”
He turned. The others followed with hesitation—vanishing into the forest like ghosts.
Lord Inquisitor stood silent a long moment before he spoke. “You almost had them.”
Jena had felt it too. The Seanchan wanted to agree, but Lord Knight’s words tugged at something fundamental. But visceral fear had won in the end. And she understood it too well.
Lord Knight nodded. “Almost isn’t enough.”
“I’ve seen their look before. They’re broken. Might as well be ghosts.”
“Then let’s make sure we don’t break the same way,” Lord Knight said, looking toward the mountain. “Our plan doesn’t change. We will investigate the Fortress.”
Those words drew cold terror in Jena from memories that were not of hers. But, she had sworn to Lord Knight that she could keep up. Her stomach quashed at stepping into that realm, to face the terrifying visage of their nightmares. She opened her mouth, fighting with the two halves of self, “Lord Knight, i do not…. I do not…”
Lord Knight cut her off, as if knowing her mind. “Jena, we do not expect you to step in there. There is clear danger and you physically have not healed. You have been involved in the terrible fighting, but that was never your purpose. In your physical state, you will only slow us down.” He says, despite the edges of his exposed bandages fluttering in the wind. He softened his edge, “And you will need to be witness to our deeds. If we do not return.”
It was a solution to her decision paralysis, and yet it still left her uneasy to be left alone on the hillside. But what other choice did she have? She wanted to protest, but yet the clenching of her heart lightened.
By dusk, she watched them climb the path toward the mountain’s heart. The wind tugged at the Knight’s bandages and set the Inquisitor’s cloak snapping like a black flame as they faded into the shadows of the path.
Jena found a hollow where the grass was soft and the horses could graze. She built a small fire, not for warmth but for the illusion of safety, and waited in the shadows of the mountains. And she would wait a long time.